One Day at a Time

This morning hit me like a freight train. Up and at 'em at 8am was strangely more difficult than usual, but I obeyed my alarm clock and headed to my typical morning routine of YMCA, breakfast, shower, and time with Jesus. Today as I journaled I couldn't help but think of my future. My next summer, my career, my husband, my family, and even the nonsensical details that will weave their way into my next three years at Carolina.

I just prayed that God would have His way with my future (I'm far too indecisive to even think of what I want my life to look like in fifteen years). I just want my life to glorify You, I kept thinking. ...But then my good friend fear stepped in with all his "what if's", and my trust faltered. Looking too far into the future, worry and doubt flooded my mind and I realized that I, just like Peter, have enough courage and trust to attempt to step out of the boat, but as soon as reality sets in, I'm sinking.
Leave it to Jesus to put me straight already. Still thinking about all this, I popped open my devotional to July 15th.

"Do not worry about tomorrow!

This is not a suggestion, but a command. I divided time into days and nights, so that you would have manageable portions of life to handle. My grace is sufficient for you, but its sufficiency is for only one day at a time. When you worry about the future, you heap day upon day of troubles onto your flimsy frame. You stagger under this heavy load, which I never intended for you to carry.

Throw off this oppressive burden with one quick thrust of trust. Anxious thoughts meander about and crisscross in your brain, but trusting Me brings you directly into My Presence. As you thus affirm your faith, shackles of worry fall off instantly. Enjoy My Presence continually by trusting Me at all times. "

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; 

or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"

Matthew 6:25-26